I have not written in almost a year. Until this point, I could not tell you why I have waited so long to write. I could tell you I write an exhaustive amount of reports for my job weekly, and it zaps my enthusiasm for personal writings. I could also tell you the distraction of center stage romantic relationships that should have been intermissions tempered my writing. I could also tell you I wasn’t inspired enough to write, however inspiration is always present; sometimes we simply have our eyes closed.
I have carried a lot of judgment against myself for productivity not operating in my life at its fullest. I am coming to know that sometimes the only variable that causes pause in our lives is that of divine timing. Divine timing means that the universe is already ordered to perfect synchronicity in such a way, that your path is crafted to experience all that is good without you having to do a thing. Now, it is true that faith without works is dead, and it is also true that some things are only attained through waiting. Waiting in and of itself is a very active stance.
Waiting at times makes me want to throw myself down to the ground like a two-year-old and begin stomping my feet and jumping up and down. Truth be told, I don’t like waiting. I am growing to understand sometimes the Divine shows up as the waiting and in the waiting.
It has been a journey to come to understand that waiting is not God’s attempt to be shady, however a loving respite that causes us to exercise more trust and faith to usher us into our next level of living. When what you’re waiting on finally comes into fruition, it requires you to operate at a different frequency. Waiting is preparation to accommodate the promise. When we see waiting as friend and not foe, we understand that in every millisecond of waiting Spirit is orchestrating the harmonious coalescing of all things necessary for you to come into your promise, your desire, that thing you’ve been longing for.
The anxiety and angst of waiting is derived from how we choose to spend our time waiting, particularly when we spend it thinking about what we don’t have in the moment, which isn’t a reflection of what is yet to come. I can’t speak for you, but thinking about what I don’t have makes me sad and unhappy, and I refuse to keep attracting that experience. Attempting to force something on our own, because divine timing isn’t moving quickly enough for us also contributes to sadness and unhappiness. It’s kind of arrogant. Doing it on our own is like putting a cap on the Universe’s love for us and saying, “I got this, I’m good on how you want to love on me through the waiting.” When I do attempt to manipulate divine timing it brings more discomfort than desired to the experience of waiting. I believe joy can be experienced in the waiting based on how you choose to wait.
Affirmation: Today, I choose to wait with steadfastness on the promise. I choose to accept the current conditions and co-exist with them in ways that epitomize self-love.
How are you choosing to wait?
Until Next Time…..Be KYND and wait.
Rev. Kyndra Frazier, M. Div, MSW